- Sweet
- Thoughtful
- Compliant
- Serious
- Great hugger
- Lap warmer
- Moody
- Doll lover
- Adoring fan of big sister
- Clumsy (could trip over her own shadow!)
- Mommy's girl
- Has a temper and knows how to use it
- Dancer
- Music lover
- Cautious
Saturday, September 19, 2009
"Pumpkin Pie"
"Monkey Doodle'
- Spirited
- Strong-willed
- Adventurous
- Fearless
- Dramatic
- Smart
- Chocolate lover
- Puzzle master
- Out going
- Stubborn
- Silly
- Not girly-girl
- Not tomboy
- Mathematical
- Logical
- Challenging
- A leader
- Limit tester
- Independent
- Friendly
- Willful
- Quick learner
- Bug hater
- Cartoon lover
Friday, September 18, 2009
Too busy to notice?
I don't know what it is about today but I just seem to be in a reflective mood.To be honest I am not sure I am happy with the direction things are going but quite often I feel helpless to change paths.May be its just that I am feeling sorry for myself and trying to fit myself into some sort of mold that doesn't really exist and setting myself up for failure.
I find myself reading other peoples blogs and am inspired by the families or the people who write them but then quite often I start wondering what is wrong with me,why can't I be like so and so....?Everybody always seem to be going here and there on fun outings.They always seem to be sewing,baking,doing amazing crafts with the kids.I have only been doing "school" with my little monkey for three weeks and already I don't feel like I'm doing enough or the right things *sigh*.Some times I go on my own little adventures just so I have something to post or prove to myself that we do have fun once and awhile.
I read about their children who are smart and amazing creatures and they could give you a list a mile long about who their children are.Their likes,their dislikes,what they love,what makes them sad,their favorite toys/books ect.Again I feel like a failure.I have been a SAHM for nearly four years watching my kids grow and I don't know that I could give you that intimate of a picture of my sweet little girls.Or may be I haven't REALLY stopped to think about it that long and hard.Have I just been so busy thinking about the housework,the bills that need to be paid,the groceries that need to be bought and the laundry that needs to be done that I have completely forgot to "notice"them?Who are these little people?I thought I knew.
Why am I always beating myself up and trying to be perfect.It doesn't exist!I know this, yet I still strive to achieve some imaginary goal and quite frankly I am often disappointed.I keep thinking I can be more than I really am.I am ME.
There I think I'm done quietly ranting.Thanks for your listening ear(or in this case your eyes).Maybe someday I will be able to write the mile long list too.
I find myself reading other peoples blogs and am inspired by the families or the people who write them but then quite often I start wondering what is wrong with me,why can't I be like so and so....?Everybody always seem to be going here and there on fun outings.They always seem to be sewing,baking,doing amazing crafts with the kids.I have only been doing "school" with my little monkey for three weeks and already I don't feel like I'm doing enough or the right things *sigh*.Some times I go on my own little adventures just so I have something to post or prove to myself that we do have fun once and awhile.
I read about their children who are smart and amazing creatures and they could give you a list a mile long about who their children are.Their likes,their dislikes,what they love,what makes them sad,their favorite toys/books ect.Again I feel like a failure.I have been a SAHM for nearly four years watching my kids grow and I don't know that I could give you that intimate of a picture of my sweet little girls.Or may be I haven't REALLY stopped to think about it that long and hard.Have I just been so busy thinking about the housework,the bills that need to be paid,the groceries that need to be bought and the laundry that needs to be done that I have completely forgot to "notice"them?Who are these little people?I thought I knew.
Why am I always beating myself up and trying to be perfect.It doesn't exist!I know this, yet I still strive to achieve some imaginary goal and quite frankly I am often disappointed.I keep thinking I can be more than I really am.I am ME.
There I think I'm done quietly ranting.Thanks for your listening ear(or in this case your eyes).Maybe someday I will be able to write the mile long list too.
Monday, September 7, 2009
I feel the earth move under my feet
Ok so we decided that even though the interest rates are ideal...we can not make a "go" of our renovation plans.Isn't that always the way.Your bringing in good money but the interest rates are high or the interest rates are low but the money isn't happening.What gives?Is there ever a meet in the middle scenario?So we are doing the next best thing or rather the ONLY thing we can do at this point and that is to dig the basement out by hand.Yes folks,the old fashioned way.Shovels, picks and buckets.DH and one of his work buddy's took a sizable chunk of dirt out today (about 112 18L pails) but suprisingly in the grand scheme of things it looked equivilant to taking one tiny corner off a large cake! Oh well if it means in the end that I can have a spot for my washer and dryer and deep freeze (so they aren't in my kitchen).Then I guess its worth it.It also is a good reminder for us to not take anything for granted.When you have to work for what you want I think there is more satisfaction in the end.And pride in a job well done.Although I am totally a weakling and can not lift those pails especially up a flight of stairs I am sure I will be lifting the pick ax and shovel right along side DH.The least I can do is keep the girls out of the way while sipping a nice tall glass of iced tea!
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